Working with the HOPE project has intensely expanded my horizon and my understanding. I find myself connecting everything I see and read to the project. I ask myself, How could this piece of information fit in? Is this something that people should know? It is like my eyes and ears are fine-tuned into a particular frequency and I hear more than usual on that wave-length. Everything I read connects up with something else that I have read. I don’t have to think about it, it just happens. I intuit the underlying patterns and the larger picture – but this is not easy to put into words. I try to let things come of themselves otherwise I feel stressed and cramped in my thinking.
I feel led from one thing to the next. Messages appear magically at times and at other times I struggle to figure out what I want to say. Sometimes I discover information that feels overwhelmingly, disturbing, tragic, stupid or sad. I loose track. I can feel hopeless. And then I wonder if I am working on HOPE for myself, to force myself to look for what is working, what is good. And then suddenly a stunning video or something inspiring, engaging, hopeful pops-up. I see the power of the Good again. And I feel the passion and excitement of wanting to share it!
I know that I must allow both sides in, in order to keep HOPE real and honest. I am not after “positive thinking”, that is superficial. I am after changing beliefs – my own beliefs and those of others through seeing what is possible.
What about the future, I wonder. Can’t think about that now. I just have to take one step at a time, one day at a time. What a strange task I have taken on. But maybe it is my new spiritual practice.