Focus

Working with the HOPE project has intensely expanded my horizon and my understanding.  I find myself connecting everything I see and read to the project.  I ask myself, How could this piece of information fit in? Is this something that people should know?  It is like my eyes and ears are fine-tuned into a particular frequency and I hear more than usual on that wave-length.  Everything I read connects up with something else that I have read.  I don’t have to think about it, it just happens. I intuit the underlying patterns and the larger picture – but this is not easy to put into words.  I try to let things come of themselves otherwise I feel stressed and cramped in my thinking.

I feel led from one thing to the next.  Messages appear magically at times and at other times I struggle to figure out what I want to say.  Sometimes I discover information that feels overwhelmingly, disturbing, tragic, stupid or sad.  I loose track.  I can feel hopeless.  And then I wonder if I am working on HOPE for myself, to force myself to look for what is working, what is good.  And then suddenly a stunning video or something inspiring, engaging, hopeful pops-up.  I see the power of the Good again. And I feel the passion and excitement of wanting to share it!

I know that I must allow both sides in, in order to keep HOPE real and honest. I am not after “positive thinking”, that is superficial.  I am after changing beliefs – my own beliefs and those of others through seeing what is possible.

What about the future, I wonder.  Can’t think about that now.  I just have to take one step at a time, one day at a time. What a strange task I have taken on.  But maybe it is my new spiritual practice.